I am feeling like a lame-wad.

I *know* I’m not using my time wisely in Ramadan.  Between the physical exhuastion of fasting and the mental and emotional exhaustion of work, I “can’t” find time to do any extra ibadah.  I’m so behind in my Qur’an, and I’ve hardly been to the masjid to pray tarawih.  Sure I’ve prayed at home, but it isn’t the same.  I get tired easily and give up after just a few sets of nafl.

I don’t want to be one of those people at the end of Ramadan that is filled with regret because this amazing opportunity has slipped right past me.  For the past few days it’s all I can think about– I’m going to regret this.  I’m going to regret this.  I’m going to regret this.  And what’s annoying now is that I’m wasting time thinking about how much time I’m wasting!!

So my new policy is that no matter how tired I am from work, no matter how much grading and planning I have to do, no matter how much cooking I need to do for a party, I’m going to let go of my physical exhaustion and turn into a robot.  After all, fasting was prescribed for “just a few days, ” so if I’m tired now… insha’Allah in just a few days, I won’t be.

O you who have believed, decreed upon you is fasting as it was decreed upon those before you that you may become righteous -[Fasting for] a limited number of days. (2:183-184)

Even Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala is giving us tussalli that it isn’t gonna last forever, so man up and do whatcha gotta do!

Last ten days, here I come!