Craving #1 & #2

by Ayesha Posted on September 6, 2008

Craving #1– Mrs. Field’s Cookies-and-Milk-Shake

cookies_and_milk_.jpgBack in the fall of 2006, two perfect mates finally became one.  Cookies and Milk were married together into the Cookies-and-Milk-Shake to be sold at Mrs. Fields stores across the nation. What a blessed union.  I want some so bad right now.  For my two cookies I usually pick the standard semi-sweet chocolate chip and the M&M sugar cookie.  I’m formulating and plotting and scheming up a way so that I can get some today after I break my fast, insha’Allah.

Craving #2– Arab food

mussaka2.jpgLiving in Michigan I took Arab food for granted.  There were times when I’d have to eat it, rolling my eyes and begrudgingly because I was so sick of humus, rice, meat, and salad.  But now, 300 miles away from Dearborn, I think my eyes have stopped rolling and started tearing because I WANT SOME STINKING ARAB FOOD.  I don’t care if it’s a shawarma, or rice and kafta, or chicken fatoush salad, or humus and bread.  I just want something.  Ammi… abbu… Fati… if you’re reading, PLEASE next time I come to Michigan let’s have some Arab food PLEASE!!

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You May Have Won the Battle…

by Ayesha Posted on September 4, 2008

When will this year end?

Such were the thoughts running through my mind on my drive home from work.  I cannot wait until this first year at a new school is done.  I am waiting for the day when I can no longer be “the new teacher.”

I was the new teacher all last year.  I spent so much time trying to get my curriculum together and keep things neat and organized for next year.  I don’t know why I did that because I knew from the start I would be leaving the school at the end of the year and moving.  I worked so hard to adjust, learn the rules, learn names, and find my way around.  It was all in vain, bummer.

Now I’m AGAIN the new teacher, and I’m having the same troubles.  Writing curriculums, planning lessons for the first time, writing new quizzes and tests, learning students names, and figuring out what works for them for discipline.

That’s the hardest part.  I had to start from scratch and figure out all over again how in the world to get some respect from a classroom full of 14 yr olds.  It’s sooo hard, and everyday is a battle.  I come home worn out and downright depressed at times thinking about my students and how I have to manage them.

But I guess, they can win the battles, because insha’Allah I will win the war.  If I can make it through the year, and next year not be the “new teacher” who is still adjusting, then I consider myself victorious.  It may seem extreme that I’m using a war analogy, but foreals, if you were teaching, you’d understand.  Standing in the front of the class is like standing at the front lines.

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Thank You, Hunno!

by Ayesha Posted on September 3, 2008

Today’s kaana was EXCELLENT.  If you’re reading this while you’re fasting, I’m sorry.  But don’t worry, there aren’t any pictures.

The old husband and I got in our car at 6:45pm and headed North on 294 towards Skokie to visit my brother and sister-in-law and join them for iftar.  My brother’s been in Illinois since January, but his wife just moved here this past weekend.  So this was the first time, after much anticipation, that my husband and I got to go hang out with my brother and his wife, not in Michigan, but here in Illinois.

I was really looking forward to something to hit the spot after a long day of work (see post below) and man, did my bhabi deliver!  The moment we got off the elevator at their new apartment the hallway was filled with the smell of what I could quickly, easily, and lovingly identify as Chinese chicken.

Hunno had prepared egg rolls, hot and sour soup, Chinese chicken, and white rice.  The egg rolls were perfectly fried (thanks to Ahsan, her brother) and the hot and sour soup was legit– we’re talking wood ear mushrooms, tofu, bamboo shoots, and other things of hot and sour soup nature.  The “appetizers” alone were so good that some of us were stuffed after those.  For those people, they missed out on truly enjoying Chinese chicken.

Chinese chicken. *sigh* Wa ma adraka ma Chinese chicken?  Since 2004 my bhabi has been impressing my family with a very simple, yet delicious, Chinese chicken stir fry dish.  It includes chicken (of course), bell peppers, green onions, and a lot of salty, brothy, saucy… sauce!  It’s peppery, squishy, firm, crispy, slippery, and wonderful on top of white rice.  It is just what you’re looking for in terms of a hot meal after a long day of work.

So for you, Hunno, hats off for a meal well made and welcome to the Chi!  I look forward to more delectable meals shared between the two of us, insha’Allah.

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School Daze

by Ayesha Posted on September 3, 2008

Walking around the school during Ramadan you can see a clear difference in everybody’s faces and attitudes.  If you think it’s joy and excitement, unfortunately I have to tell you to think again.  People are dazed, confused and of course, tired!!

Not only are the students losing focus during instructional time, losing motivation to do homework, and slacking off more and more, the teachers too are starting to lose their “umph”… and it’s only the 3rd day of fasting!

I used to think it was hard to stay awake in school during Ramadan, so during lunch breaks, instead of going to the cafeteria, I would go to the library to put my head down.  Little did I know that it’s even harder as a teacher.  Because as a teacher, not only do you have to keep yourself awake and going, you have to somehow motivate your students too.

I’ve already heard countless complaints of “too much homework” considering it’s Ramadan.  I know, and my students know, that they don’t use all their time after school for extra ibadaat (unfortunately), so a few extra math problems won’t really get in their way.  But dude, I don’t want to do the work, even if it is just grading “a few” math problems!  I’d rather not teach or grade or instruct or motivate.  I just want to sit at my desk and pass out… again, it’s only the 3rd day of fasting!

Maybe insha’Allah with time our bodies will adjust to the new schedule, and life will go on and pick up speed again.  Isn’t that how it always is?  At the end of Ramadan your body is so fine tuned to your new habits, and it feels like the month came and went by too fast.

May Allah make each moment of the next month sweet, fulfilling, and blessed for us all, ameen.

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- ( -1 ) + 1 = +2

by Ayesha Posted on September 3, 2008

numbers.pngA few Fridays back I attended a short evening lecture given by Imam Suhaib Webb at UIC.  The subject of his talk was, of course, preparing for Ramadan.  He went over the basics– why we fast, how we fast, who needs to fast, etc.  And he also went over the spiritual aspects of Ramadan:  the do’s and don’t's of actually reaching the goal of increasing our taqwa.

One of the things he mentioned was to set some goals for ourselves during the month.  It doesn’t have to be something enormous, but just something.  Whether it’s giving something up (because we don’t have the time to waste on it) or if it’s adding something to our busy schedules (because we’re learning to prioritize deen in our everyday life).  He said though, no matter what, after we adjust our life to a “Ramadan schedule” we should try our best to hold on to atleast one good habit, and also to continue to let go of one bad habit.

As he was talking, I was taking notes, and wrote in short hand what he had said.  Now, keep in mind that I’m a math nerd (at least self-proclaimed) so I was thinking in terms of numbers.  So, how did I translate and evaluate the verbal expression of neglecting one bad habit and adding on one good habit?

- (-1) + 1 = +2

What does that mean?  When we give up something bad and at the same time strive for something better, not only are we adding one good habit, but because we’re subtracting a negative, we’re also adding another good!

Who knew math and Islam had something in common?? I think I have something to talk about in class tomorrow with my students!  Hurrah :)

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